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It seems I'm not handling the break up well enough. I haven't been consistent with my strength training, and now I can't even do easy weight properly. On my last squat session, 100kg, which used to fly like nothing, felt like 150kg. My chest almost collapsed. It felt way too heavy. I just finished the squat sets and didn't do any of the other movements.
It's interesting and very annoying how emotions can affect the physicality of a person, or at least myself. It's strange. I knew I could hit that weight easily any day, but it just felt so heavy. I could feel the weight of my emotions pulling me down from my chest. I don't like it. I'm not even sure when I'll be able to move weight again. I also haven't been eating well or properly enough.
I will. I have to. It might take some more days or weeks but I have to be better. I have no one but myself.